Heart Broken

Have you ever had a Time when you thought maybe it's just time to give up. That maybe true love isn't easy but it shouldn't be this hard? A time that you consider that maybe you just arn't in love anymore and it would just be easier for give up on a spouse love and just have a child on your own, A child who knows no better than to love you. One who you don't have to worry about them loving your appearance because you are their mother and they will always love you because you brought them into this world and you are all they know? That's where I am now... That's what I want to do right now... I mean let's face it, who is going to love me? This guy that I have been with off and on for 11 years just admitted that he's not attracted to me because I am fat... I'm a size 15... it's not like I am over 300 pounds. I weight 198... so yeah okay I am like 50 - 60 pounds over weight.... there are worse out there... why is it now a days in society a girl cannot enjoy food because instead she needs to eat grass and stay a size 2 to get someone to love her or else spend the rest of her life alone and unhappy? Though why do I need a man to feel happy? where does it actually state that I cannot be happy unless I have a companion? Everywhere. It is invisibly stated EVERYWHERE. So what do I do about this? I literally have to change who I am and what I look like just so someone can love me because the girl I have become is unlovable...

What do you Think?

So here is what I want to know. What do you think of the story idea? does it sound interesting? What do you think I should change? Would you read it? Please let me know. Help me be a better writer and blogger.

Much love,
Mikki-of-Darkness! <3

Princess of Darkness

Halloween is a young girl just trying to figure out her purpose in life just like any other teenage girl. She thinks that she is just plan and ordinary having no real skills at all. Though when she meets Damien she soon learns that her best friend; Renee, Kristina, and Mitchie share something mind blowing with her. The hard part is? They cannot know what she learns. But why? Damien cannot answer all the questions and she later finds out her father is hiding something from her... But what? Halloween's best friends and herself hold a dark past and future but can Halloween figure it all out and get it under control before it's too late? Before her own flesh and blood sister, Peyton beats her and ruins her destiny?